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C.J. Heck's avatar

This one rang a bell and pulled a trigger with me, Jane. Deep and provocative!

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks, C.J.

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C.J. Heck's avatar

You’re welcome.

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Francesca Bossert's avatar

Jane, I know this kind of resentment. Sadly. And it's hard to extricate from. This is a strong poem!

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Prajna O'Hara's avatar

Jane, this is potent!

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much, Prajna! I wasn't sure of the ending lines, it seemed intense. Glad it went with it

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Lori K's avatar

F’ing resentment! Ugh. Thanks for sharing, this hits home my friend!!

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Jane Deegan's avatar

You're welcome, Lori! It hits for sure, maybe this time I will learn from my writing

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Elizabeth Grace Martinez's avatar

wooooooo yes. felt this one!

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks Elizabeth. Sometimes writing it all out makes me realize I am doing this to myself

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Amy Delcambre's avatar

This makes me think of my own situation. I have expressed my own frustration at being manipulated given how it’s negatively impacted me and have asked for resolution, and it’s just not being responded to, so I have had to speak out. It’s hard. Glad you’re doing the same.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks, Amy. It has to be frustrating not being heard and the manipulation you recieved. I have had so many times I didn't speak up in so many situations and relationships that I end up with resentment and bitterness. I created that.

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Amy Delcambre's avatar

I’m definitely not bitter and I realize paying attention to it at all was my choice. As I told a friend—never again. I’m the adult in my life and the authority. When things are wrong, I’ll quickly and efficiently make them right. And kindly. As much as I can. Because I do want to help, but often people don’t realize they’re being manipulative as I have many times not realized it and have been grateful to have it pointed out with compassion. I feel sure most people want the same. Not all, but many. So, you’re right—any negative emotions and even hurt feelings are ours. My own choices have led me into the needless hurt and suffering I’ve endured. So I just say thank you for the lessons—even from the types who seemingly want to spread chaos and anarchy…I know that not every person likes me, but that’s on them. I’m not here to be popular—I’m here to be real. Like you. 🫶

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much, Amy. I appreciate your insight and your authenticity here.

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C.J. Heck's avatar

If there's anything good about the melancholy, you manage to find it here. Well done, Jane.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much, C.J. I learn so much about myself writing and reading here

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C.J. Heck's avatar

You’re welcome, Jane. I do, too.

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SuddenlyJamie's avatar

You describe the insidious nature of this wily beast so well.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much!

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks, Jamie. It is an insidious beast - you described it perfectly

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