I Cried - Delayed Grief (poem)

tears are the flood gates to the soul

How many times have I cried today?

Was it because things weren’t going my way?

How many years​?

How many tears?

Is my life horrible?

No

Then why do I cry?

I don’t know really know why?

I cried in my car

sobs escaped

from a visceral pain

that no one would understand

I cried

when I looked in the mirror

I didn’t like what I saw

my eyes magnified every flaw

I was tired of trying to smile

I was spiraling first time in a while

I cried today during therapy

I always do

I cried about things only my therapists knew

I cried over heartaches

I cried over mistakes

I cried over my mom and dad

I cried because I wish I could finally understand

I cry because I saw a little girl who could never walk the line

I cry because the little girl would say she was fine

I cry over

So many mixed-up emotions

So many that I have been trying to show

Is that why the tears have finally started to flow?