Hiding Out in Substack's Drafts

Will they see the light of day?

Today I noticed I had 27 posts in my Substack drafts (and that’s down from 45 before the clean out!). Some were duplicates, 10 were completed, a few were collections of my poetry under different genres, and then there were 2 unfinished articles.

So why haven’t I published those 10 completed posts?

Some, I never will post, they are for me. A few were/are too painful, and I deleted one, so I’m down to 9.

Vulnerability?

There are the ones I feel are too vulnerable. It’s ironic in a way since most of my writing has been very honest and raw here. Am I afraid to show who I really am, again? Am I masking my true self (again) or is it time to move on and write about sunshine and rainbows?

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No, I don’t want to write about sunshine and rainbows! (Unless I feel like it).

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Decision paralysis?

There are a few posts that don’t match my mood at the moment and I’m waiting for that perfect time when it meshes with what I’m feeling. What if that time never comes?

Then there is the “which one to pick?” Decision paralysis at its best or worst

So, what am I hiding? Here’s a sneak peek.

• A fight I was in when I was in high school with a bully.

• The dark side of a church mission trip.

• My current frustration with our health care system.

• My current health condition and the struggles I’m facing now.

• My menopausal tv sitcom heroes.

• Dark poetry exploring emotions like grief: anger, depression, loneliness and the list could go on.

Is my writing too dark?

Is my writing too dark? Will other’s worry about me if I say, “there are days I feel down?” through my words. Do I care? The questions could go on and on depending on the day. I don’t have any answer today.

For now, my writing sits. I’m not sure if they will remain there or not. Maybe not all of what I write is meant to be shared and it’s just for me. That’s OK too.

Questions:

Do you have unpublished writing sitting in your drafts? Is there something that has kept you from publishing them?

Now that I gave you an inside peak at some of my “hidden” posts, which ones are you curious to see me post?