It was 5:45 and I had a sinking, anxious feeling. I remembered feeling less than last night and I tried to figure out the why.
I got coffee and opened my laptop. I vowed to start my day writing and not checking my phone. I started to edit a few posts. One was from last January when I was recovering from Covid. That day I watched the beautiful sportscaster on television. I felt less than. That same feeling I get when I compare myself to the unattainable. I was doing the same thing last night. I am feeling a “less than” hangover now especially when I compare myself to the “Tiffanies” in my life. (You’ll have to check out my previous article).
I felt a nudge on my arm. It was my dog! He nudged me again. He wanted to see me! It didn’t matter if my hair was a mess, or I felt insecure inside. He loved me or was hungry. Maybe both.
I thought of how he looks at me in awe. My family tells me that and I don’t always see it. I also knew the golden hour was for creating writing and not editing. It wasn’t for editing myself either.
A pet’s love is unconditional. He is still missing his friend Kya. He is grieving too. I’m so sorry little guy.
Thank you, for being there for me buddy and reminding me of what is important in life
Our pets can teach us so much. He is my teacher and I have so much to learn from him.
Unconditional love from pets, especially dogs, is awesome. They are excited to see you whether you've been gone a minute or a day.
When our youngest told us he was adopting a dog with his roommates at the beginning of his sophomore year of college, I thought, for sure he was making a huge mistake. Did he realize that he was going to be responsible for another living being? Not for a semester or a year, but for a decade. The responsibility of finding a caretaker when he was away from school and couldn’t take the dog with him? Plus, what would happen after college? Not to mention just the day to day responsibilities of taking care of a pet! Turns out, he wasn’t just rescuing a dog from a bad situation… The dog was rescuing him. His dog has given him more stability in his life, in a time of great change. I can see now how she has helped him navigate his college years. Helped him with her unconditional love, her need for routine, her need to go outside and be fed and simply get him out of his head (and his apartment) and think of someone else’s needs. I’m glad you have that too!