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Deborah T. Hewitt's avatar

I see you today in my feed!

and this one made my heart thump as I read. I hope you're doing okay. Sending you much love Jane. ox

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much, Deborah.

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Kathleen Hobbs's avatar

I hope she breaks free once the wall is down.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks. I do too.

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Wendy  Gray's avatar

Oof! Such a POWERFUL poem, Jane! This is a great one for spoken word poetry. I could hear the repeating rhythm of the pain and forever impact of trauma. Well done!

Blessings and MUCH LOVE! ~Wendy💜

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much, Wendy.

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Brenda - A Voice that Wonders's avatar

This one punched me right in the guts! Trauma comes in many ways.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

It does. Sometimes it's unknown scapegoating of a traumatic event.

A 6 year-old- child will internalized it even if it wasn't her fault

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Dr. Nicole Mirkin's avatar

The repetition here captures exactly how trauma imprints itself—layered, inherited, and absorbed long before someone has the language to name it. The way the poem shifts from accusation to realization mirrors the actual arc of healing I see in practice: recognizing what was never yours to carry. Digging out “one brick at a time” is slow work, but it’s the only way the cycle breaks. This piece holds that truth with clarity and honesty.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much! Writing has always been therapeutic for me. I appreciate you taking time to comment and read.

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Dr. Nicole Mirkin's avatar

I really believe it’s important to take time to read other people’s pieces here. This community is incredibly supportive, and you never know what you’ll learn or what will connect with you. Showing up for each other is part of what makes Substack meaningful.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

It is. I appreciate authenticity as well.

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Dr. Nicole Mirkin's avatar

This is so powerful, Jane.

The way you captured the loop of internalized trauma — how it gets handed down, absorbed, and mistaken as our own — is exactly what so many people silently carry.

“Digging out one brick at a time” is the part that stayed with me. Healing really is that slow, that intentional, that brave.

Thank you for putting words to an experience so many of us have lived but never learned to name.

— Nicole

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks so much!

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Thérèse's t-raise you up's avatar

Visceral. I could feel my past self in the poetry.

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Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks Therese

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