Falling

Into the chasm

I don’t want to feel

then it will be real

So, I sat

and dropped to the depth

felt the ache

that could cause me to break

To the bottom I fell

to the bottom of that well

at the bottom the pain

and loneliness crashed over me

and I let myself be

The only way was up

as I sat in the muck

I know hands are reaching out

but feeling like this

makes me not want to be found out.