Is it an illusion that a Saturday can seem so full of possibilities?
This is the first Saturday, actually a full weekend of in a while and I’m lost! I’ve been working full force and then it was Friday and I realized I have the whole weekend off.
I was ecstatic at first. So full of possibilities. Then I remembered I did not have anything planned. My husband works weekends, I didn’t make plans with friends and as a mom of a teen I was the designated Uber.
Why do I feel lost when I have a chunk of time open? The day ticked away. I scrolled the internet. I compared myself. Checked substack. Took care of the pets. Drove my son to his event.
I did have lunch at Dairy Queen with my son, which was nice. I’m the mom of a teen so I appreciate these times! The music playing was the “oldies” even for myself. Meatloaf, Kansas.. It made me wonder if this music was geared toward grandparents that were taking their grandchildren to DQ on a Saturday. Not quite my jams but close to it. The grocery store now, they play my jams. I told my son someday he will be in a grocery store at 40 and he will see what I mean. What would his “jams” be then.
I dropped off my son and got a few cans of cat food and dog food. I looked around and realized this was my life. I am a middle-aged mom buying pet food on a Saturday afternoon. I hummed an REM song playing (my jams) as I used the self-checkout, and I was out for a few hours of “me time.”
I got my lunch, scrolled my phone, fed pets. Dusted a little here and there, did a load of laundry and wandered aimlessly around the house. It is almost pick up time and I have no idea where my day went.
Was today a wasted day off driving doing random housework? Probably not. Sometimes you need those ordinary days and it’s ok and I’m writing just what comes to mind. This is freeing! I’m also being true to myself and am doing daily writing no matter how small.
Life doesn’t always have to be planned, somedays its ok to wander and eventually you will find your way back.
Happy Saturday
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well said! Happy saturday to you!