I Woke up Today and Fell into a Rabbit Hole
The vanishing quiet morning
I hit the ground running today if only in my mind.
I woke up thinking about medical bills, the calls I had to make and insurance issues to resolve. My mind spun with all of the imagined hassles with that. Then again, it could go smoother than I thought.
Then my business came to mind. There were appointment to schedule, the mental load of running a business, caring for pets and my latest computer issues to resolve.
I also had to check my son's lunch account online and figure out if the funds in the account make it until the end of year . Not happening. It looks like I'd be off by one day. Dang!
Since I was online I continued on and traveled down that rabbit hole. I checked my social media business page, then the click bait posts of unspeakable local news. I can't even. I can't unsee. I wish I could.
“And just like that,” I was stressed before my day began. My coffee was outside on my chair, abandoned, and probably had a bug or two in it.
I demand a restart!
It's never too late to restart the day and I will now. The to do list, problems will always be there. This beautiful morning will soon be over as the heat of the day takes over.
I will try to seize it now, if only for a moment.
My editing on this post will happen later I'm sure.
Happy Wednesday!
My bouquet I picked!
Blank page and new day!
This right here Jane - All of it. .. I wrote a piece (scheduled for June 12) that talks about how I've tried to not fall into these rabbit holes so much, . It's bc we do care and love and are full of empathy and our motives are pure so.. I can totally relate to every word - (I don't run a business - but my "checking"
Is this situation going on with family and it involves Medicare Medicaid and it's so cumbersome so I think my brain WANTS to distract me. It's the ways I'm learning to pull up and out of the holes that are every where . I also remember in 2022 I was on my phone computer 13 hours a day- as what i thought was "on line activism. (I got involved in anti Mlm anti-multi level marketing ) bc I had been a beachbody coach and had so many resentments for how badly I was manipulated and wanted to genuinely help people avoid the pitiful of false "unlimited income time freedom" pitfalls. It was relatively short lived I suppose but oddly it became to feel like I was in my MLM again. The same pressure to share and warn people was the same pressure I felt to share challenge groups and fitness goals in beachbody (now bodi) my point is- we seem similar in our quest to want life on earth to be better for all and sometimes the computer/media gives us such a giant rabbit hole in which it's difficult to not get pulled into- and we've both channeled it into creative/writing. That's a huge win! 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
I can't watch the news. It drags me into darkness. Sending peace, Jane! ❤️❤️