I Can't be a Rock Today

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I can’t be a rock anymore

At least not today

I'm being covered with water

from the heavy rains

Even a rock can’t stay above water

In times of pain

In times of overload

Who is there for the rock​?

I want to know

Why do you all seem to go​?

I am scared for, you and you and you

I am your rock

I cannot let my feelings flow

I have to be there

It all bottles up

That's why rocks are solid and tightly wound

I want to be your rock

I can’t today

I feel internal pain that no one sees

I feel like a failure

I want to be strong​

I have to face reality

I don’t want to

It hurts too much

so the rock stands alone

The rock can’t anymore

At least not now

The rock did this to herself

She isolated, she put on a brave face

She hides in the water as they stormed around her

All the while being strong.

It is lonely feeling like the rock

Who is there to help the rock​??

The rock can’t move now

She is weighted down

And is too heavy inside to lift

So she sits alone

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