External validation -raw writing
The scared little girl inside of a woman
There’s a grown woman
that scrolls and scrolls
refreshes and refreshes again
no messages no likes
She feels herself getting more desperate inside
She chases external validation
She is scared
she is anxious
she decides to stop and understand why
She looks deep inside
she is scared to face her feelings
of what is underneath
Underneath is a little girl that is lost in the store
a little girl under a table, no one sees crying on the floor
A little girl in a hospital room, in pain. No one hears the bell.
She has blood work every hour to try to find out why she’s not feeling well
a girl that is bullied and can’t speak out
a little girl that sits alone
a little girl crying unheard
a girl feeling disconnected
a girl that was misunderstood
A grown woman that looks successful to the world
A grown woman that is loved
A grown woman wonders if that will be taken away some day
A grown woman that is scared
A grown woman that realizes if she stops long enough she will cry
She sits with her feelings and knows why
They are scary feelings
She felt these so long ago
so deep inside she didn’t really know
She knows this today
That doesn’t mean they will go away
Never. Ever. Lose your little girl. Conquering her fears …. Work in progress. Keep writing . Good job little girl 🌹
great recognition and honesty, our dogs' name is Little Girl we call her LG or little G, not to compare to the seriousness of what you're expressing but a little levity!