Down the Drain
Slipping away. Am I vain?
I will write
tell you my plight
this edge of night
fight or flight?
Gray skies
telling lies?
Unease
No breeze
I can't run from you
No matter what I do
You will come back
Please cut me some slack
I'm getting older
Bolder
Yet colder
I don't like these changes
How it rearranges
In my mind
My body
Happening so fast
Images of my past
My hair
Watching it shed
falling off my head
Last bit of youth
I guess I'm losing you too
Pieces of me
Identity
Slipping away
A fool to think you would stay
Strand by strand
I don't expect you to understand
Maybe this is vain
I still grieve
As I watch you slip down the drain
By: Jane Deegan 3/22/26
You are doing fine. You are letting your mind tell you tell you that you are getting tired. I still have moments where I wonder if I will wake up the next day, but I am 73. I used to be a runner, I used to lift weights, I used to be in pretty good shape but over the years I have had two knee replacements, neck fusion of the C 4-C 7, multiple procedures on my back including a TLFT on the L3 -S1. I have a wonderful wife that has helped my physical as well as my mental rehab. You will be alright. I will send some prayers out to you. It also makes me feel better. You go gurl!
Making peace with the changes, thanking this body for all she's brought me through, and apologizing to her for all the negative judgments I've lobbed at her. Looking in the mirror each morning and telling her, "I love you and I will take care of you today, and always." Ah, acceptance brings peace. ❤️