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Gayle Beavil, MA, BEd, CAPP 🇨🇦's avatar

Jane, I feel for you! To me this sounds like an aching to be seen and understood. It’s such a one-way street, isn’t it? And when you put your heart and soul into sharing yourself and it’s met with little in return…. It’s heart-breaking. I think I know done of what you’re feeling. Keep writing. Keep staring. The right folks are out there.

Jane Deegan's avatar

Hi Gayle!

There is an ache as a creator and a human to be seen. Sometimes it's easier to write about it instead of telling the people in front of me. I'm trying though

I've also realized that I have spent too much time on social media and avoiding in person connections. It's tough because being self employed and working with animals I don't see as many humans during the day.

There is a grief pulling back but it doesn't mean I have to completely abandon this platform and it can still be part of my morning routine.

I also want to make sure I'm really hearing and seeing what is written and created here. I can't do that always if I mindlessly scroll.

I truly appreciate you commenting and sharing your insight and I am so thankful we connected here.

Gayle Beavil, MA, BEd, CAPP 🇨🇦's avatar

I’m glad you are ensuring some real people and face to face connections take up more space in your life. That’s what I am so passionate about. You will feel better! And you’ll likely have more things to write about, too!

Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks, Gayle! Your writing inspires me that way!

I know I will feel better. Sometimes we need to sit with ourselves for a little. There is nothing like face to face connections.

I'm still thankful for this little community here.

Deborah T. Hewitt's avatar

I can relate to these words. Grief comes in so many forms and I feel like many of us are grieving isolation (although living with the animals is far more loving at times). Beautiful poem Jane. ox

Jane Deegan's avatar

Grief truly does came in so many forms and I am learning that the older I get.

Thanks so much, Deborah! I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment

Corie Feiner's avatar

“A light disappears in the dark

yet light shines on in words” this is one of the things to laugh about words. How they travel through space and time and stay with us.

Jane Deegan's avatar

They absolutely travel through space and time. Some good and some not so good! Thanks so much for sharing my quote and commenting. I truly appreciate it, @Corie Feiner

LJ's lit pen through the noise's avatar

I love this it really hits today for a lot of reasons. I feel the best when I am writing. I also know I cant just hole up and shut the world out and write all the time because when my concentration gets broken sometimes it feels like a wound. I also feel like sometimes I have a processing auditory situation. Connection on line is good for my soul bc I can read and respond without my adhd screaming or having to mask or not be a certain way. Hyper connection can also happen very easily for me bc of the dopamine pull. I find Substack is "less" of that for me than other platforms. But I do need to make sure I'm not constantly "scrolling and checking".

Jane Deegan's avatar

Thanks! I'm glad this resonates with you.

I hear you with writing! When I get in a writing zone. I am in a zone. Asks my husband!!

On line connection is good the past few years myself it was been easier than in person (or thinking about meeting friends)

When I actually meet with friends I wish I would've done it sooner!

Then I have an expiration date and my eyes glaze over after a few hours and Im ready to go back into my cave.

I think there is a grief for myself cutting back on social media. Especially here.

I always say it's a slippery slope to balance.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment on my post. I truly appreciate it!

LJ's lit pen through the noise's avatar

I completely complete agree and understand all of this. 🥹🥹🥹. Last night we watched Re runs of everybody loves Raymond -oh the laughter I cackled !! 💕💕 thanks for the reminder !!!

Jane Deegan's avatar

Cackling! I think were separated at birth ha ha! My husband always talks about my cackling. We watched The Middle Last night, always hilarious!

LJ's lit pen through the noise's avatar

LOL that’s so funny bc my husband was imitating me.. too ..with my cackling. How can you not cackle !!! one of the best shows ever created imo!!

Jane Deegan's avatar

I know, right?!