Alone - raw imperfect writing

No editing because I need to work but need to write. A conundrum

Alone

Gray September day

The crickets and a I

How I miss the early sunrise

Disconnect

Sometimes you have to say goodbye to things

I can't say why

Reaching out to say, “you were right, I'm hurting too.”

To be met with “we think of you.”

I wanted to hear “Do you want to talk?”

I should be more direct

I'm too tired to conspire

Attempts with let's get together

Get exhausted by being under the weather

I try to tell you my plight

I don't want a fight

It's not about you

I don't know what to do

Friend

I'm struggling too

And it goes back to you, always

Friendships can be divided

When they are one-sided

Alone

Walls closing in

My voice is muted

I recoil

where to begin?

I have to try again

Birds sing breaking down the night

And it becomes a new day

It's hard to make connections

When you push them away

And you try to pray

I wish I had more to say